My coworker was looking at me silently as we both worked.
"What?" I asked nonchalantly.
"You really need to go home, don't you?"
Can people really see right through me, past the facade of an ambitious, people-pleasing woman that time and time again stretches herself too thin? All this time, I thought it was me. I've coaxed myself into believing that I just couldn't handle all of my classes nor maintain good roommate relations and a pathetically residual social life. But, no, he is right.
This past Saturday, I caught up with some old friends. And it's been a long time since I've felt that kind of happiness and contentment with my life. Laughing with them, reminiscing, and just hanging out brought out the inner me that has been my last priority since the beginning of this school year. And as this quarter winds down, I have no choice but to push her away again, bury her beneath my studies, and respond to her needs with complete disregard.
Needless to say, I will count down the days until I can finally exhale and allow her to play.
edit//: my mom called today and home is coming to me this weekend! i CAN'T wait!! |